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2013. december 2., hétfő @ 11:02 |
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I'm still crying while writing this post. Just cant believe it. I keep telling myself that this is just a bad joke and he is still alive. Because he cant be dead. This man cant be one of the angels now....its impossible. And than I realize again and again that he is gone....and the only thing that I can do to accept it....but yet....I cant.
Paul Walker. For many people he was just Brian O'conner from F&F series. Of course Brian was his most famous character. That character which made him world-known. But for me he was much more....
I got to know him when I was 6. That was the first time when I saw F&F 1. And he was the first actor whose real name I know. And I just loved him for the first time. His smile,his eyes,his whole being. And the F&F movies bacome a part of me....a part of my life. It may sounds weird and crazy but I cant explain it really. I just feel it and this feeling is so strong...because more than 10 years....
And when somebody asked me "Who would be your ideal boyfriend?" I immediately said "Paul Walker". He was not damn famous like Brad Pitt or Johnny Depp. No. He was as famous as it was good. And I just loved the way he is.
And yesterday when I read the news....I just couldnt stop myself of crying...I still cant do. Because everytime I look to the pictures of my wall of him and see his smile...my heart cant take it and just want to bring him back to life. It may sounds crazy and like a stupid fan because I didnt even know him personally,but sometimes I felt I did. Because he was more than just a handsome actor for me. And I dont think that I should explain it to anybody who dont understands,because it has no use.....
And I have to accept that he is gone...and Brian is gone too....and there will be no more F&F like before,because PAUL DIED, AND IT HURTS LIKE HELL TO WRITE THESE WORDS,but maybe this is the only way to realize it for myself. But I am still hopeing that there will be an other newspaper article or an other tv new...that it was just a misunderstanding and they are both alive....and Paul will smile to the camera with his friend and everything will be fine again...but deep inside my heart I know that this is not true. That the horrific truth is that he is gone.....
And my prayers go to his family and friends,and fans all over the world....but still...I just can make myself to beliveve it....maybe one day I will,but not now,not today....
Paul. Thank you for being that wonderful person who you was. Thank you for your hard work,thank you for being Brian. Thank you for the smiles and that almost 11 years....Thank you for being here. Never forget you,always in our hearts. FOREVER.
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Lost in my thoughts... 
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Forever in my heart
Cant find the words.... I cant believe that you are gone and still hoping that it is not true. Pls somebody say its not true because you cant be dead...
Forever in my heart. Never forget you Paul Walker. ♥ "I live by 'Go big or go home.' That's with everything. It's like either commit and go for it or don't do it at all. I apply that to everything. I apply that to relationships, I apply that to like sports, I apply that to everything. That's what I live by. That's how I like it." "If one day the speed kills me, do not cry because I was smiling" Music for the soul  Universe  tumblr Helga Wind of the past...  ☀ A dream didn't come true....this time ☀ School has started ~ ☀ Loving Miura Haruma ♥ ☀ Ruki talking about his parents ☀ Serenade...R.I.P. Jasmine ☀ Balaton again ~ ☀ Birthday Guys! ☀ Inspiration ☀ So many things to talk about... At least, you should know Design : mintrose Edited : your truly Image : weheartit © 2012 - All rights reserved. |